9/10/2013

Is the Best and Easiest Way to Forgive someone is to Forget Her?

“In time the memory of what happened will fade when you forgive. Forgive what hurt you and never forget what it taught you!” –Larry James

Every single day of my life, I felt the happiness of existing in this wonderful and splendid world. I have parents who love and support me, friends who remain loyal to me and most of all I have GOD who are giving me the chance to appreciate and take good care all the things He made for everyone of us. I am very grateful that delightful things occur, but as what life is, consequences are really part of it.
As a student, following rules in school is a must. One of the rules we must follow is wearing proper uniform. For third-year students, every Friday we were required to wear our new Cadet Uniform for GSP. After receiving my uniform, I am excited to wear it. I want to see how I look like because when I was in lower years, fourth-year students are the only one who wears Cadet Uniform. They really look like a professional. On our first day of wearing Cadet Uniform, I felt enthuse because I think we resemble an honorable individual. When I was heading to our classroom, I saw girls fixing up their selves but I didn’t mind them much. I just hurried a walk towards our room. When I was on my way to our door, I heard someone who asked, “Where is Cleo?” The voice is familiar with me, and without any glance, I know whom that voice came from. I didn’t mind that girl because I know what she meant for saying that. I continue doing my routine in our classroom. As I was sweeping the floor, many things came up to my mind. I was thinking, and then suddenly my classmates approached me. They told me that the girl who was looking for me just want to see how small and fat girl look like after wearing Cadet Uniform and will just laugh after seeing me. I was not shocked of hearing that, however my tears became the evidence for what I really feel inside.
I never thought that there was a man who will intimidate me of whom I am, not because of my personality but because of what she can see outside of me. What really hurts the most is that she is a girl the same with me.
Days passed by. As what birds are, news has its own wings that fly high. I don’t have that idea of how she knew that I cried because of her. She came to our room to ask for my forgiveness. But, I think of it in many times before. Why will a person ask for forgiveness if she doesn’t really mean what she said? I refuse to talk to her. I don’t want to face that kind of human being. Forgiveness? I already forgave her after sometime. Many people say that she is that kind of girl. I just need ignore her because it’s her way of life. Its how deals with other people. It’s how she judges me.
I admit it. I am small, fat and dark girl. Yes, it is me, the one and only me. I was created by the man above and He was God. At that time, as my tears fall from my eyes I told myself that I will not cry for the same reason anymore. I learned that I am proud of who I am because this is the real me.  I will persevere to achieve my goals and prove her wrong. I will try and do my best to prove her that outside appearance will never judge a person’s personality.




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