Dialogue Between You and Me

Junior High in Cav. Sci.

Three years in Cavite National Science High School is not a joke, surpassing all the challenges that came in, doing all the things that you believe you cannot do at the first attempt, and most of all enduring all the pain that comes from within.

There in the Maliksi building where everything happened. There, I found new classmates, new friends, and new teachers. I met people with different characteristics. They were nice, loyal, thoughtful, etc. We share foods and different stories together at break time. We cry, laugh and make noise. We were just simple students who want to find bliss within ourselves. Whenever one of us have a foe, we make sure to go behind her back. We make sure that we were on the right path. Sometimes we just let little things to pass by.  We don’t leave anyone unattended, alone. We always go together. We are one because for us, that’s awesome.

The best experience that I encountered during my Junior High was our performance in English III for Conventional Speech Choir, “The Bells” by Edgar Allan Poe.  At first, I thought that it will be really hard for us to do it especially because we were given only small time to prepare. There came a time that our teacher asked us if we want to give up. We answered, “No” without a doubt.  We know that we can do it together. This is not the first time that we had a speech activity that’s why we know that we can handle this again. We were not after the 25% that’s supposed to be our prize for the said activity. We accepted the challenge because we want to prove ourselves that we were deserving students in this school.  There in the gym, where we proved ourselves and were really blessed. We got the 25%! I cannot draw our emotions at that time. We were silently screaming for happiness! I just found myself crying, looking around, it’s not just me. We called it tears of joy. Our hardships were replaced by a golden reward. We put this reward in our hearts. This is a prize which no one can steal.        

 Another experience in my third year life is falling in love. I fell in love to someone who became my inspiration for three years. I was happy seeing him, even from faraway place. We call this situation, so close yet so far.

I hope that someday I will see myself walking and wearing a white dress receiving my diploma for graduation here in Cav. Sci. while I reminisces all the memories that this school gave me. I hope that someday I can prove to everybody that I can do all things by the help of God. But now, I should finish all the requirements needed for school, particularly in my research. 

It’s Not Too Late to Apologize

# 318 H. Lontoc Timalan,

Naic, Cavite

February 8, 2014

Dear Papa,

            Sorry for all the mistakes that I’ve made throughout my entire life. Sorry for not obeying your orders sometimes, for being lazy and for not behaving as a good girl you want me to be.

Sorry for not taking good care of my siblings well. Sorry for not guiding them to the things an older sister must do. Sorry for staying up late at night to watch movies. Sorry Pa, for not doing all things you want me to do.

These words are just a part of my emotions which I can’t say to you personally, words which are easy to write, hard to say and harder to do, but I’m trying my best to be a better daughter for you and a better sister to my siblings. I hope I can prove to you that I am worth to be your child.

Your loving daughter,

Cleomarie 

Who am I?

            I am a third year student in Cavite National Science High School Maragondon, Cavite. I live in #318 H. Lontoc Timalan Naic, Cavite. I was born on January 26, 1999 in Trece Martirez City.  I am the first daughter of Mona Lisa and Angelo Cenizal.

            I am fond of doing things like drawing houses and different clothes. My hobbies include collecting stationeries, watching series and of course designing scrapbooks. I enjoy doing these kinds of things with an unexplainable reason. I don’t know why but when I am doing them I felt something different. It’s just it. I remember when I am on my interview for first year. They asked why I like arts. I can’t express my real thought and feelings at that time. I just felt the nervousness in myself. If I will be given another chance to answer this question, my answer will be: I like arts because whenever I do one, I felt something unexplainable. I felt something special. For me, this something given for me by God and he wants me to be inclined in it. So, I don’t waste any chance to enhance my abilities. I like arts because I believe that God gave me this kind of ability because he knows that I can do it.      

I have my weakness but I don’t depend on them. I may not do things perfectly, but I do them with heart and for me, this is the best ingredient of what I can add in my recipe of life. I am an optimistic person. I always see things in their positive ways that’s why, when I am doing things, I enjoy every part of it. I know I can do something someday. I will work hard to fulfill my dreams to pay back people whom in my life; I am in debt with, not just with money literally but with trust, love and loyalty that they gave me.

I may not do things that everyone does, but I do things in the best that I can. I believe that we were uniquely made by God in his own special way. I am Jan Cleomarie Camerino Cenizal and I believe that I am special.  

Letter for Him

Dear God,

Thank you for giving me the chance to see how the world looks like. Thank you for the air I breathe, for the foods I eat, for the water I drink and for the house I lived in. Thank you for granting my hopes. Thank you for my friends who cheers me up whenever I needed one, for my family who support my needs and most especially for my parents who understands me in times that I felt alone. For the fifteen years of life God, I thank you.

Sorry God that sometimes I lose my trust in you. I forgot that you will always be there for me. Sorry if I can follow the Man’s rules, but your Ten Commandments are difficult to do so. Sorry when you give me choices and I choose the wrong path instead of the right one. Sorry for being lazy, for not obeying my parents, for hurting some ones feeling and for not doing my tasks on time. Sorry for disappointing you in my attitude, for not paying back the value of all the things you gave me and most of all for hurting you.

When I was a child I wonder why there are always a misunderstanding between my mom and dad. I wonder why we don’t have big house, why I don’t call my parents “Mommy and Daddy”; I wonder why we’re not rich. I felt that my life was not fair. I asked myself, why do people not live equally? But when I grew up as a young lady, all of my questions had been answered. I was given a chance to live my life to answer all those questions, questions which I am fulfilling now.

  As I enter the real world, I never expect why God gave me this kind of life. He has plans for me. He just wants me to face the challenges and consequences in life, to learn a lesson and to feel how important I am. I knew that we are all equal, but not obviously seen. Those misunderstandings are just a part of a stronger relationship.  I know that God loves us all. I knew his reasons for not giving what all we want instead of what we need. It is for us to work hard and to achieve our goal more. I am delighted knowing these things. These things became my inspiration to achieve my goals in life, a life that was lent to me by the man above.

  God, please continue guiding us. Let us have good health and more years to come. Bless us all the time. Remove whatever bitterness maybe in our hearts. God, fill the empty space in our hearts with your love.

Amen

Second Chance

Learning from my mistakes are things I’m grateful for. These mistakes taught me several lessons which I can make up for the second time around.

            Regrets? Honestly, I don’t have any, because I believe from the very beginning that all things were already planned by God. He already had a plan for us, and this is what we so called, “destiny”. I believe that all things are destined to happen. All people whom we met, we make friends, and people whom we fall in love with. Faith, hope and love. But, there’s this one thing I want to undo in my life if I will be given a chance. Eating those unnecessary foods caused me to have UTI (Urinary Tract Infection) and now, I’m a suffering from that. Sometimes it was hard for me to pee. My back also aches. I was also excused from class because of this. I never thought that eating junk foods will slowly destroy me. Like what they say, “You are what you eat” and now, I believe with it.

            These regrets became part of our life that taught me many lessons in life. When there is need f eating healthy foods such as vegetables, we don’t eat and when it is not allowed to eat junk foods, we eat. Life is bitter sweet. I became brave as a lion when facing this kind of challenge. I was like a child back then.

He made a History

I woke up 4 o’clock in the morning. I eat my breakfast. I took a bath. I wore my formal attire. I have a special meeting with William Shakespeare.

I waited for him in the Purple Coffee Shop. I was amazed for seeing William Shakespeare for the very first time in my life. I stared for him from top to toe. I thank God for giving me such a wonderful opportunity to see and meet him. He dressed finely. He’s rich and nobleman. It’s fun to be with him. He’s like an old brother. We went to a room where there were so many books. We found the Shakespearian Master Pieces like Romeo and Juliet, Macbeth, Hamlet, A Midsummer Summers Night’s Dream, Comedy of Errors, Julius Caesar and Much Ado about Nothing. I asked him politely the reason why he has all of these books but he did not answer. He just smiled. I became curious. Our conversation started with my greeting “Good Morning Sir!” I asked him too many questions like what’s his real name, what old is he, what’s his mother’s name, etc. He just laughed at me. He didn’t answer even one of my questions. I enjoyed this moment. I felt the happiness. He was about to answer all of my questions, but suddenly…

I just woke up from a beautiful nightmare, a night that I hope will come true, but I realized the fact, that this dream will always be a dream, a dream that will never be real.